May 19, 2017 Susann 2Comment

Everybody has that one person in their life they dislike and for me that person is my left ovary. All pain starts in this underdeveloped pain in my side. It just sits there taking up space and makes me miserable. Sometimes my left ovary even invites over friends in the form of cysts. My right ovary on the other hand quietly sits there minding its own business, being all normal and nice. Then to evacuate the unwanted cyst there is always the pill. Both the cyst and pills suppress hormones I need for my treatments. Apparently the cyst also dislikes…

April 19, 2017 Susann

Here we go again, another high court application for a surrogacy. You think it would get easier but it is still invading my privacy, draining my bank account and angering me that I have to be analysed by a shrink to say I’m fit to be a parent. Really, if you want to know if someone will be a great parent – is someone who spends an hour (or less) with them really qualified to write a letter to say that they are sane and loving towards each other…and fit to be parents? Do people that fall pregnant naturally have…

February 23, 2017 Susann

It is about time I did an update on research that is happening around the world to assist the blessed infertiles like me. Keep in mind that research is still experimental and most will never be seen as a real treatment, others will be proven ineffective and others will end up just being too expensive. I previously wrote about IVA and now I’m going to tell you about research done by Professor Evelyn Telfer in 2016 with ABVD. The research was conducted to find an answer on why ABVD doesn’t cause infertility in cancer patients. They discovered that cancer patients…

February 15, 2017 Susann 1Comment

I have been in for close to 12 aspirations and abandoned cycles more than double that. It hasn’t gotten any easier. On 2 Feb I went in again. I woke up to good news, a smiling husband and Dr Clark that found 1 more. Then the wait started to hear about progress… the fertilized egg survived and became a 4 cell embryo and then the wheels came off. By day 6, which is extremely late, it only started splitting into a 6 cell… but then it started to fragment. My embryo was too badly fragmented to be frozen. It was…

November 10, 2016 Susann 2Comment

When breeders, you know who I’m referring to, complain about having to deal with their kids’ issues I literally want to smack them. Seriously, you complain about having a hyperactive kid that can’t pay attention or a kid that “ruined your figure”? F*** you. via GIPHY Walk 1 month in the shoes of someone like me and you will be thankful that you are a breeder that popped out kids that are not perfect. Your problems are miniscule in a world full of real problems. Going to a fertility clinic and having a doctor fiddle down there isn’t fun. It…

October 15, 2016 Susann

Hello…anybody still out there? I feel like I have been gone to somewhere unknown and was a freak wherever that was. Well, I am back to normal as can be. Thuli for president I have great admiration for Thuli Madonsela. She is a strong woman that took on one of the most challenging roles that would see her stand up to “our dear president”. She didn’t back down when she was threatened. She stood against the government for the people of South Africa. She is a hero. If ever Thuli joins a political party as their leader – that party…

September 7, 2016 Susann 3Comment

I am on a whining streak of note. I can barely stand to be around myself. I hate that I have to go through all this nonsense, injections, HIV tests and just everything to do with fertility treatments. I $%$#%^$%^ just hate it. I hate that people ask me if I’m excited about a kid that is on her way because how the $#%$%$ should I be excited? Do you see me pregnant? Here is your answer. If you don’t see it, you don’t feel it and it lives 800km on the other side of the country… how the $#%$%^$%…

September 6, 2016 Susann

I have so much to still tell about the journey that brought us to this moment. It was a journey that has taken much from me, let me explain… Have you ever had that one friend that took life for all that it offered. The friend that was the glue, heart and  soul of your little circle of friends. The friend that had your back no matter what. I was that friend. It all changed for me when my dearest friends couldn’t stand by me and support me through this. I know they didn’t know how to handle a situation…

September 3, 2016 Susann

It has been a rough few days. I am interviewing stand-ins at work for while I’m on maternity leave. It is hectic to try and find someone I can trust to continue the work I have done. It has been 5 years of my IP into the brand. It is something I took from nothing to something of substance. This afternoon I finally got home from work and my husband was huffing. The type of thing he does when he is upset but doesn’t really want to tell me…because most probably it will make me go into full hulk mode….

August 22, 2016 Susann 1Comment

I’m not quite sure that we are prepared for baby Lexa to arrive in just over a month. We have stuff, but everything is somewhere between haphazard and a mess. We have now received gifts from my parents and sister, my work colleagues (*story to tell here). To make everything worse, we still have to pack for our migration to KZN. We really have to carefully think about what we have to pack to survive in our other home city, what to take to hospital and still fit 3 cats and my mother into the car. It is going to…