I should’ve been a beach bum

It’s all the little things in life that matters like walking with hubby in a nature reserve, visiting family and having time for the 3 critters that live with us. I am More »

Aspiration, Anesthetics and Me

Big words that scare me. Tonight I will get yet another injection in preparation of Wednesday’s procedure. Tuesday night my eating and drinking must stop at 10pm. Wednesday I will be in More »

Infertility

The race to finding eggs

The most frustrating thing about not being able to fall pregnant or to predict a cycle is that I have to wait for a miracle. To get the miracle I have to More »

Goddess

Coping with work and traffic

Have you ever seen a woman stuck in Santon traffic swearing like a trooper? It probable was me. I hate Sandton traffic more than I hate stupid politicians. This year was really More »

Goddess

Things I want in 2015

I know that I have everything I need, but sometimes I also want a little more. For the year of 2015 I would like to cross off number 1 above all. A More »

I should’ve been a beach bum

It’s all the little things in life that matters like walking with hubby in a nature reserve, visiting family and having time for the 3 critters that live with us.

I am renowned for my laid-back lifestyle and my ever urgent need to go to the beach – and I live in Joburg. It sounds wrong that I’m a Joburger and laid-back – right? When we get to the Ballito house and unpack the 3 critters my husband suddenly gets the same lazy look I have until we get there. It is food and water for the cats and then beach. I don’t like to clean house unless I have dipped toes in the sea, neither do I want to know that we have to buy food. I just want the sea.

Then at the end of the breakaway we pack the critters and make our way back to Joburg and soon wish we could go back or live in Ballito forever.

Aspiration, Anesthetics and Me

Big words that scare me. Tonight I will get yet another injection in preparation of Wednesday’s procedure. Tuesday night my eating and drinking must stop at 10pm. Wednesday I will be in a clinic gown and hopefully I will be home by 1pm.

What scares me most of all the big words are those that could see me never waking up. Those words that they do to you when you are in a medical facility and you get wheeled out in a coffin. I have a real fear of being placed under anesthetics.

I am an optimistic realist – or so I like to think of myself. Just in case anything does go wrong on Wednesday my will is up to date – and I would like to eat a meal fit for a queen. I want chicken and chips with a Cinnabon.

If I make it through this – I deserve a Pandora bracelet this year.

The race to finding eggs

Infertility

The most frustrating thing about not being able to fall pregnant or to predict a cycle is that I have to wait for a miracle. To get the miracle I have to ingest pills like candy, get poked and injected. It is just horrible.

Seriously, I wish I didn’t have this issue and could just fall pregnant like a stupid teenager.

Monday we will be back in the clinic and hopefully it will be better news than last time. I am seriously in need of extremely good news. if there is no good news we have to wait for yet another cycle.

 

Coping with work and traffic

Goddess

Have you ever seen a woman stuck in Santon traffic swearing like a trooper? It probable was me. I hate Sandton traffic more than I hate stupid politicians.

This year was really special with Eskom making life in Sandton worse than normal. Getting out of Sandton could take anything from 10 minutes to an hour (crazy). I cannot understand the traffic issue at all – traffic should move, but no…in Sandton it just hangs around for better days.

This week our company started with flexi-hours and I am going to be in and out of Sandton without the horrible traffice. Yay for me.

Things I want in 2015

Goddess

I know that I have everything I need, but sometimes I also want a little more. For the year of 2015 I would like to cross off number 1 above all.

  1. A baby of my own
  2. Health for my 14 year old kitten
  3. Health for my parents
  4. Happiness at home
  5. Flexitime from work
  6. My start-ups to grow
  7. Pandora bracelet with awesome charms
  8. New passport stamp
  9. Tattoo (will forever be too scared to do this)
  10. To fit into my size 12 clothing again

If I can work flexitime at work I can skip traffic and be a lot more happy and have time to make healthier food – and that would help quite a bit.

To GOSH or not to GOSH Cosmetics

Gosh Cosmetics

I recently discovered GOSH Cosmetics and fell in love.

This Danish cosmetics brand thought of the best detail to add to the lipgloss bottles, a little mirror to help you gloss those lips. If you thought a mirror was great, you might think that the little light in the cap is a miracle! How awesome is that? The lipgloss (or glaze) lasted quite a few hours but then it was quite sticky unlike some of the other lipglosses I own.

I also love the nail lacquer called 619 Girls on Film – most adorable name ever. I always say that I don’t want to use nail lacquer with glitter in, but I could not help myself. The GOSH Cosmetics nail lacquer has small and big glitter in giving my nails an interesting look.

Would I recommend GOSH Cosmetics to anyone, yes I would!

Without you, I would be nothing

Goddess

You are the one that opens the curtains
That stands strong in the sun
You are the one that takes me places
That spoils me rotten for no reason
You are the one that finds happiness, enough to spread around
You are the whirlwind
That has crazy ideas
You are the one that finds the way
That leads me back to me time again
Without you, I would be ordinary
With you, I am me

The week of love

Goddess

Every now and again I have nothing good to say about anything or anyone. Then I go silent. To top it off I have just been in such a crappy mood that I can barely stand to be around myself.

I hate the waiting game I have to do until my next cycle and I hate traffic and I hate Eskom.

The only little ray of sunshine I can see is that I won 2 return tickets to Singapore with Ballz Radia and Singapore Air. I might just save them for the next 6 months and use them if I have to go to Japan for that procedure. Else I will have to go back to Asia with hubby for a holiday – he looked happy that flights were free, but the last time we were in Thailand…was supposed to be our first and last time to Asia.

I am cautiously optimistic and have started to get together some awesome stuff for Baby-To-Be. Stuff in the box comes from Sticky-Fudge, BE beautiful Earth, some toys and lots of hope and love.

Hubby and I will as per usual not do anything for Valentine’s Day as I’m just not into that commercial nonsense. Call me unromantic. Whatever.

Saturday we might do the Lonehill Parkrun thing again. Need the Vitality points. Sigh. Sunday we will as per usual go to Rietfontein in Paulshof – love that place.

Anyway, that is me for today.

Attorneys should die in hell

Infertility

Got an invoice from our surrogacy attorney yesterday for R5k in the afternoon. Then this morning we get a reminder… you haven’t paid me and I will keep the letter to the clinic hostage until you pay. Seriously, attorneys should die in hell for being so greedy. She “only” charged us R30k for the application. Attorneys like this should be ashamed to charge people this much to do a case like this. What are your thoughts?

Finally some good news on our surrogacy process

Infertility

Yesterday we finally received some good news about our high court application. The surrogacy application was approved and we can proceed. It only took 2 months after the submission was made to the court.

At this stage I just want to get to the end of the road and have my baby. I am so tired of everybody else “being so sad” and “so sorry”. I get so angry when people say they understand, because clearly when you have 2 or 3 kids you understand what I am going through. Seriously.